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22 July 2011 @ 02:13 am
oneshot; khunyoung  
Knockin' (inspired by Vanness Wu's new song 'Knockin' go check it out! It's brilliant)
Pairing: Nichkhun x Wooyoung (surprise, surprise....)
Summary: Nichkhun's made mistakes, he looks for Wooyoung and tries to apologize, make excuses and basically try and say its not his fault but Wooyoung finally sets his foot down.
Author's note: I've hit a slump...I think I've been in this slump for a while actually, haha. You know how sometimes everything you write you feel its inadequate or you just get nothing from any inspiration? Yeah - that's what's happening except I think I'm getting out of it...slowly...But enough of that, enjoy :)

‘bang, bang, bang’

The knocking continues with each knock louder than the last. Wooyoung eyes the door irately and heaves a sigh. He treads softly along the ground to a brightly lit kitchen. He opens a door to the fridge and eyes around for something to satisfy his sweet craving.

‘bang, bang, bang’

Stop the knocking.

Wooyoung wraps his right hand around a bottle of cold banana milk. He twists the lid open and begins to gulp it down as though he was in a race.

“Wooyoung please open the door!” The crying for his presence grows louder on the other side.

Stop the shouting.

‘ring, ring, ring’

His forehead furrows, frustrated he puts the bottle down on the marble bench accidentally creating a loud thud.

‘ring, ring, ring’

Stop the ringing.

Wooyoung takes a few steps towards the device near the couch. He takes a glance at the caller I.D on his phone, shuts it off and walks towards the mahogany door. With a hand on the handle, he manages to open it wide enough to see the person standing on the opposite side drenched in water.

Stop trying to get to me.

“Enough is enough. If you know I’m home and I don’t open the door I obviously don’t want to see you.” Wooyoung looks down to the white tiled floor to see a puddle slowly forming. He was prepared to close the door until a hand reaches out to his wrist and grips it gently. The warmth on his skin slowly begins to drain away by the other mans cold skin and his face falters slightly from stern to worrisome.

“Please.” He was shivering a little, the cold finally hitting his body.

Stop pretending to understand me.

“Go home and take a shower Khun”

No more Khunnie, or the affectionate ‘jagiya’ – just plain Khun. And it upsets Nichkhun a little but he doesn’t budge. He struggles to find the precise words to articulate.

“Stand in my shoes and tell me how you would feel. What would you do?” Nichkhun winces a little at Wooyoung’s blunt question, “You can’t repeat I’m sorry a hundred times over and over and expect something good out of it.”

Wooyoung touches Nichkhun’s hand which is still wrapped around his wrist. The warmth gladly welcoming the contact but he gently releases his wrist from the cold touch.

“You can’t make excuses and cover it up with I love you and pretend what you feel is real”

“But it is!” Nichkhun attempts to fight back, his voice echoing down the hallway.

Stop spreading lies.

“You can honestly recount what you’ve done and look me in the eye to tell me…” Wooyoung looks at him incredulously, “you love me?”

Nichkhun attempts to look into his eyes.

'Didn’t his eyes use to form a small line when I stood in front of him because…because he’d be smiling at me?'

Nichkhun‘s eyes stray away and looks, honestly looking at Wooyoung’s current features.

'Where’s the chubby cheeks I use to pinch and love to kiss? Where are the lips that use to anticipate a kiss? Where’s…Where’s the Wooyoung that would burst into laughter at me standing in front of his door all wet?'

Stop looking at me like I finally exist.

Nichkhun slowly extends his hand out – but he stops in mid-air. He sees Wooyoung subtly biting down his lower lip and the one visible hand clenched tightly into a fist.

One touch seems enough to break him – so he stops in mid-air.

Nichkhun sees it in his mind – the constant crying for his name at night and there is no response because he’s not there to hold him, telling him everything’s alright.

“What you gave me, this thing…This thing when it hurts to hear your name, to see your name to even just know that you stood where I am standing…” Wooyoung’s voice begins to tremble slightly, “this thing it isn’t fresh…it’s an ongoing pain. It has been ever since your first time.”

Nichkhun sees it in his mind – the tears streaming down the cheeks he once loved because he knew all along. Everything was made to look perfect but behind it all was someone cheating its way through construction and it was just a matter of time for it all to crumble.

Stop trying to finally care.

“You can’t expect to put a band-aid over it and let it heal perfectly because it scars. It left this scar where I can’t even scratch it out, or touch. So don’t give me your bullshit on I’m sorry anymore because right now I can finally say…” Wooyoung drags a sigh, “I don’t care.”

Wooyoung shuts the door and locks it tightly. He leans back and listens.

The knocking ceases.

The voice is gone.

And the ringing stops.
♫: BY2 - 这叫爱 | Powered by Last.fm
JunHo'sBootyCalldevilslover422 on July 21st, 2011 05:41 pm (UTC)
WAS IT VICTORIA?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? IT HAD TO BE HER!!!!!! KHUN DID U CHEAT WITH HER?>!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! GOD, WHY?!?!?!?!

This was effing brilliant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god, i missed ur stories sooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!

please write more soon1!!! :D
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on July 22nd, 2011 01:57 pm (UTC)
IT'S ALWAYS VICTORIA! But this time it's up to you lol ~

I'VE MISSED YOUR LOVELY COMMENTS! ♥ and awwww you make me smile :) I still have your 2 fics on my to-read list!!! The swimming and wedding one!! lol! ♥ SO WAIT FOR MEEEE ♥

I will try only if you do too!
JunHo'sBootyCalldevilslover422 on July 22nd, 2011 04:18 pm (UTC)
i choose victoria! lol she needs more hatred!!!

lmao!!!!! ive been sooo out of the fic loop since starting work, so i have no idea what is going on, but when u showed up in my friends page, i was like YES!!!! LOL hahahaha, i can definitely wait, don't worry. lol

omg, ur on!! i write alot on my way to work cuz the ride is soooo long, so ill prob def post alot more. lol imma hold u to this!!
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on July 23rd, 2011 09:22 am (UTC)
omg i know what you mean! lol I have so much to catch up on and want to read! ♥

pynxei15pynxei15 on July 21st, 2011 05:59 pm (UTC)
wow. this was wonderful. really well-written.
i've been craving a khunyoung fic for a while...so thanks.
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on July 22nd, 2011 01:57 pm (UTC)
I'm really glad you liked it! And thank you for such a nice comment ♥
cipherstar: KY - specscipherstar on July 22nd, 2011 05:57 am (UTC)
woah...i love this...
damn you Buck!!!!!undo whatever you did!!!! everything!!!
fix all those scars!!!!! and erase Woo's memory of you! >.<
*huggsss Woo*
lololol..i can get all emo if it's about Woo :P
heh..its okay baby..you always have others ^___^

i love this!
love how you put things into words..love it ^^

on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on July 22nd, 2011 01:58 pm (UTC)
I mean I just can't imagine Woo doing the same T^T

And thank you so much! :) ♥
cipherstar: KY - specscipherstar on July 22nd, 2011 04:22 pm (UTC)
^^ the exact default setting in my head..
Buck the forever heart breaker :D
heh..that's what brought me to Taecwoo though :P
JunHo'sBootyCalldevilslover422 on July 22nd, 2011 04:19 pm (UTC)
i feel like we, as fic writers, are the ones who make u hate khun!! lol ur soo amazing!!
cipherstar: WooTOWcipherstar on July 22nd, 2011 04:32 pm (UTC)
hahahaha..nahh..Buck kinda did that to himself first..*coughwgmcough*
you guys' fics are like my medium to let out those hatred :P muahahaha
and who you called amazing? you guys are the ones that amazing ^^
JunHo'sBootyCalldevilslover422 on July 22nd, 2011 05:10 pm (UTC)
no ur amazing!!!! ur soooo consistent!! lol like u read every fic and comment too, ur like a super fan!!

ur right he did do it to himself, but i remember someone wrote a fic where jyp forced him to do the show as cruise control and i believe it. lol imma live in that world. lol
cipherstar: WooTOWcipherstar on July 22nd, 2011 05:20 pm (UTC)
haha..i love how i sometimes believe all these fics world..
like the Vamp2PM fic..omg..i'm gonna believe with all my heart that my boys are vamps...lolololol

i've got nothing else to do when i'm online..so i just read the fics :P muahaha
plus..i kinda loyal with the stuff i'm interested in so yeah..nothing much about that..haha
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on July 23rd, 2011 09:24 am (UTC)
I definitely know how you feel cipherstar! Sometimes I read them and I watch them in a variety show and I'm thinking "...wait didn't ___ do ___ to ___?" but then I come back to reality and go "OOOH IT WAS IN A FIC!" lol

You readers are amazing because where would we be without you? :)
cause i cant forget your love ♥dreamoscope on July 23rd, 2011 01:40 am (UTC)
gah this is amazing. im a sucker for fics where the pain is so palpable, and i love this. especially how you made khun goes in and out of the past images, makes you wonder what makes it so wrong, and how did he actually singlehandedly destroy his own world and wooyoung's.

nice to see you writing still ^^
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on July 23rd, 2011 09:47 am (UTC)
I'm so happy you're still here T^T
Even though I've being a zombie on LJ ~

Thank you so much! :)

i miss your writing and i believe i have a few to catch up on ~ ♥
cause i cant forget your love ♥dreamoscope on July 30th, 2011 02:46 pm (UTC)
omg trust me, im so glad you're still around writing too :)
i havent written for a while and its just really nice to see familiar faces writing again :D

thanks for missing my writing lol. you probably dont have much to catch up on cos like i said, i havent written for a while .______.
sugar & spice: min and mickchoco_cloud on July 24th, 2011 11:47 pm (UTC)
why is it always woo? xD i've never ever read a khunyoung fic where nichkhun's being heartbroken. is it victoria??? T.T this hurts... poor woo /hugs.
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on July 25th, 2011 03:18 am (UTC)
I KNOW RIGHT! XDD! I guess Woo's just so easy...lol, even though Khun looks more like the innocent guy.

I guess Khun's kinda having his heartbroken in a way here? XD! I've written drabbles but never a one-shot, maybe I should try! Hey! You've given me an idea! :D haha

& Thank you for reading ♥ much appreciated :3
sillykilljoyssillykilljoys on July 26th, 2011 07:44 pm (UTC)
;rltkngd'lsfkgalksdfngves;kdfnlbvl;fknb /dies. Being a ridiculously ridiculous Khunyoung shipper, anything that has either of them in it, or both together, especially when paired, I go insane and have to read it. Half the time I get angst that I regret reading because its depressing and makes me feel like crawling in a corner and sobbing, or its full of self pity and pisses me off. But this was GREAT. I mean. The pain was there, and it was definitely angst, but you made it so tangible, and I really like your writing style. And that I didn't feel terrible about myself afterwards. And that you care to actually differentiate Nichkhun and Wooyoung's thoughts from the dialogue and each other's thoughts. >__< BUT DAMMIT NICHKHUN, THE FUCK DID YOU DO THIS TIME?! IF IT WAS VICTORIA, GOD, I SWEAR... Youngie, you poor baby.. ♥ /comforthugswhileglaringatkhun Thank you for writing this fic, please write more! ^-^
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on July 28th, 2011 03:52 am (UTC)
I don't think you have ANY idea as to how happy your comment made me feel! ANYYY!!! EVEN READING YOUR COMMENT AGAIN MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'VE GOT A WHOLE FACTORY FILLED WITH CANDY ♥ ♥ THANK YOU SO MUCH ♥!!! I didn't want to mention who it was because most of you would probably think Victoria anyway but it could be someone else ;)

sillykilljoyssillykilljoys on July 29th, 2011 03:41 pm (UTC)
^-^ Awww. You're welcome! Heeheheheee. I feel so giddy, 'cause the way you talk about my comment makes me feel special. n_n *strokes imaginary beard with evil expression on face thinking of all the candy factories I could produce with my comments* >.< But even if it wasn't Victoria (Even though I blame her anyways because I hate her and she's getting in between Nichkhun and Wooyoung's love) It had to be someone else, so Nichkhun is a heartbreaker and a jerk anyways. TT-TT YOUNGIIEEEEEE /sobs hysterically
on rainy days: 'v&a'shinzara on July 30th, 2011 01:51 pm (UTC)
You're just so sweet @_@
ahaha the world will be a better place with all those candy factories, mmmn ♥ *lets my mind wander off*
It's okay, I blame Victoria too LOOOL xD
sillykilljoyssillykilljoys on July 30th, 2011 06:37 pm (UTC)
Heehehee. WHO NEEDS ENAMEL? *slaps knee*
And you're right in doing so. *bows humbly* KHUNYOUNG SHIPPERS UNITE (to destroy the scum of the earth, Victoria.) -_____- ...I'm getting a little carried away...xD
khunyoungaholic on August 27th, 2011 06:27 am (UTC)
Hey ,

I'm Chip, a fan of KhunYoung. I've read your fics and I like them so much!
Anyway, I'm a admin in khunyoungaholic.com, a forum about Nichkhun/WooYoung. We usually translate English fics into Vietnamese. We want to translate your fics and I need your permission. Do u agree?
Please reply to me soon. Thank u so much^^
P/S: My email: cut3_g1rl211@yahoo.com.vn
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on August 27th, 2011 07:45 am (UTC)
Re: Hey ,
Hi! ^^ I'm not sure if you want me to reply here or email? But hopefully you get it here :)
And anything to spread the Khunyoung love! So of course you may! :D This comment actually made me smile really wide :D so thank you ♥ teehee
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on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on June 9th, 2012 10:28 am (UTC)
I didn't know people still read this! It kinda makes me really happy :D haha
Thank you so much for reading! And I'm really glad you liked it ^^ & who knows, could've been someone else ;) hahah