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24 October 2011 @ 04:27 am
Oneshot; Khunyoung  
Again & Again
Pairing: Nichkhun x Wooyoung
Summary: Nichkhun's turned to drinking to solve his problems, each night he comes home and someone's waiting.
Author's note: Perhaps one of the quickest thing I've ever written o.o" Hope you enjoy :) /off to finish assessments ;__;

Lately I’ve been coming home drunk and smelling like women’s perfume. I walk in and stumble amongst the shoes piled up at the front of the door. Its past everyone’s bed time, I try not to make a sound but with my current co-ordination I manage to make a ruckus. But they all know not to get up and panic if it’s a burglar because they all know it’s me. It’s kind of a normal routine now…Nickhun leaving the dorms and coming back later at god knows what hour smelling like a drunkard. It’s strange, my minds clear as heck but my body is like it’s asleep.

It’s tiring to wake up a few hours later knowing I have a hectic schedule on the day but that doesn’t stop me. I continue to do what I do because, well, it’s not that I like it, it’s just one day I went out, found a bar and drank until I forgot. And now it’s kind of a habit to get rid of my troubles. I know it’s not good, no one outside of the company knows but I need it – for now.

I manage to take my own shoes off with minimal problems and I walk in to the dark hallways. It usually only takes a few strides to get to my room from the front door but when you’re drunk, it takes forever. I open the door to my room and my eyes are instantly hit with intense light. I shut my eyes tightly and blink several times.

Of course…Of course it’s not that the manager installed some kind of automatic lighting system which will light up when I open the door. Of course it’s not.

It’s because you’re here.

Again and again. Every night, I come home and you’re fucking there. Sitting on my bed with those sony headphones and a book. Do you even read it? Because it’s the same bloody book every night.

You’re looking at me and I can see it in your eyes.


You know what you’re gonna see if you wait here each night so don’t look at me with those eyes. Don’t look at me like I’m a failure or that you pity me. You pull your headphones down and leave the bed. You walk past me but I grab your arm before you leave the room.

I want to say so much to you right now like, do you know how long we haven’t had a decent conversation with more than five words in it? Do you know how much I miss talking and joking around with you? Do you know how much it fucking hurts to hear other people say Wooyoung this and Wooyoung that when I’m the one who is supposed to know first? I want you to know what I’m going through, I want to tell you what I saw yesterday and what Junsu did to Taec which made Junho’s cheeks hurt from laughing. I want to talk to you about Chan’s latest crush. I want to tell you everything and anything but only silence envelop us. My grip slowly weakens and your arm slips out from my touch.

My body slowly collapses to the floor.

I’m sorry

Did I think that out loud or did I say it in my head? Tell me you heard it.

My eyes begin to blur and my minds a mess. If I stop doing this will you stop looking at me like that? Then tell me everything’s going to be okay and I’ll stop. I’ll stop being a mess; I’ll stop this drinking that’s making everyone worried.

“Goodnight” I hear you say before the lights turn off and I’m alone.

Tomorrow will be the same, I’ll walk in, I’ll see you here and I’ll try again.

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love_khunyounglove_khunyoung on October 24th, 2011 06:43 am (UTC)
ohh..why? what happened between them? I hope they work things out though. Khun is a mess now and Woo'll fix it right? :) Thanks for sharing this.
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on October 25th, 2011 06:00 am (UTC)
Yes! Woo will fix it because he loves Khun too much to see him like this...As to what happened between them, it's up to you ;)Thank you for reading!!! Much love :D
cause i cant forget your love ♥dreamoscope on October 24th, 2011 07:42 am (UTC)
Tomorrow will be the same, I’ll walk in, I’ll see you here and I’ll try again.

i dont know how it falls apart, khun could've just stop, and wooyoung wouldn't have to look at him with disappointment. khun could've said something while wooyoung is leaving if he misses him that much. SO WHY DIDNT YOU KHUN? wooyoung probably thinks khun is over him thats why hes not doing anything. - lmao but then again it can be wooyoung's fault in the beginning but i cant see it because im THIS biased. LMAO.

beautiful, as always, write more bb i missed your writing so much i totally squealed seeing you updated!
on rainy daysshinzara on October 25th, 2011 06:02 am (UTC)

Khun's got too much pride and well, he just doesn't know how to start you know?...Sigh. AHAHA gotta start writing bad!wooyoung to make you see a different side :P

And thank you so much for always reading!!! :') Your comments always make me so happy! lovelovelove!
cause i cant forget your love ♥dreamoscope on October 25th, 2011 07:28 am (UTC)
haha the feeling is mutual ♥

you know, even if you make him bad i will be cheering for him anyway because he's not really usually written as a bad boy on most fics. HAHAHAH im hopeless really.

cannot miss out on such beautiful writing, y'know :D
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on October 26th, 2011 12:10 pm (UTC)
sillykilljoys: Khunyoung (intimate stare)sillykilljoys on October 24th, 2011 08:05 am (UTC)
You and your pretty angst again. ;~;

I want my babies back together.


But that's not what happens.

It's just torture. forever. Cause no one wants to hurt themselves, and because they don't take the risk, both my babies end up hurting more.

on rainy daysshinzara on October 25th, 2011 06:03 am (UTC)
Aww I never knew angst could be pretty! Thank you so much! :')

I would love to write a fluff about these 2 but my mind just doesn't think fluff for them... x_x

One day... (ha...see what I did there? :P lol...)

Thank you so much for reading!!
sillykilljoyssillykilljoys on October 25th, 2011 01:52 pm (UTC)
Sure it can. ^-^ It's pretty and sad, and beautiful T___T

;~~~;x It's okay. Ehehehee. It doesn't matter too much. I'll like anything you write. :w:

/giggles/ Ahh, Unni, you're too much. XDD

My pleasure. n_n hehehe. /steals candy from your Candy factory/ [lmao. I doubt you remember that, since it was a really long time ago. But I remember it cause I just started on LJ and you made me feel all special and fuzzy on the inside @_@ Candy will stop being such a creeper now .__.;;]
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on October 26th, 2011 12:14 pm (UTC)
I'm gonna be honest and say I don't remember, I'm sorry...HA. YOU WERE EXPECTING THAT WEREN'T YOU? Well tough luck cause I remember :P lol! Ahahahah. How could I forget? I mean you gave me one amazing paragraph of a comment that produced all those candies!!! Ahahaha ♥ I don't forget ;)

And asdcncnow now YOU'RE making me feel all special and fuzzy!!! ♥ You are so sweet you know?!?! ♥ Major love to you!
sillykilljoyssillykilljoys on October 26th, 2011 05:40 pm (UTC)
>////< You make me blush. *-* /noms all your candy and gets a cavity/ ;~~;

sdlf;jasl;dkfj Hehehehehehe ^0^ I like making other people feel special and fuzzy though. ♥ .__. I'm not that sweet. klsda;fjl;skdfj ^-^-^-^ /feels the love/ ♥
cipherstar: KY - specscipherstar on October 24th, 2011 08:30 am (UTC)
You know what you’re gonna see if you wait here each night so don’t look at me with those eyes. Don’t look at me like I’m a failure or that you pity me.
this and every other things you want to say to Woo Khun. you know, you can just stop what you're doing and you definitely will never see the look in Woo's eyes again..

because everything is sooo hectic and in a mess he became like this? hurting everyone in process?
Khun, you can just have a talk with Woo and aaalll your worries will be sent away..wae you have to choose this way >.<

thank you for this!
definitely love it :)
on rainy daysshinzara on October 25th, 2011 06:08 am (UTC)
Because Khun likes to choose the easiest way out :( It's sad but true in here...*SIGH* He's too much of a man to talk...T^T
I'm sorry for hurting khunyoung! But thank you so much for reading and enjoying it!!!

habitualunacyhabitualunacy on October 24th, 2011 07:05 pm (UTC)
/I want to tell you everything and anything but only silence envelop us./

I like this line. It captures how Khun is really in a mess for wanting to say something yet not knowing the right words to say. I wish you can do a follow up on this. Like how Wooyoung became cold towards Khun. :p But this was good. Keep writing!

on rainy daysshinzara on October 25th, 2011 06:08 am (UTC)
I've been thinking about a Wooyoung perspective but still in the process of wondering if I should aha ~ So maybe!! :)

Thank you so much for reading and enjoying!!! :D
r_terandus: No u-turnr_terandus on October 24th, 2011 11:21 pm (UTC)
This is so... Heart-breakingly beatiful...
on rainy daysshinzara on October 25th, 2011 06:09 am (UTC)
*pieces heart back together* Awww the word 'beautiful' makes me so happy in your comment! Thank you so much for reading! :')
mychocotangomychocotango on October 25th, 2011 08:39 am (UTC)
This is breaking my heart..but you wrote it in such a beautiful way. Beautiful beautiful angst..#sobs
Tomorrow will be the same, I’ll walk in, I’ll see you here and I’ll try again =» what is this? This...this is..aaahh..
A good read. Thank you for sharing, :)
on rainy days: 'smile'shinzara on October 26th, 2011 12:15 pm (UTC)
Having you guys think it's beautiful angst makes me feel so bubbly and happy! (ironic aint it?! lol)

And thank YOU for reading! I'm really happy you enjoyed it!! :D
mychocotangomychocotango on October 26th, 2011 01:14 pm (UTC)

They should just kiss and make up already. Seriously. Communicate guys communicate .loi. Keep writing :) you're good :) kkkkk
taintedfeather on October 26th, 2011 01:26 am (UTC)
Damn.That Hurt my Heart. DX
on rainy daysshinzara on October 26th, 2011 12:05 pm (UTC)
Aw ;_; *pats your heart*

thank you for reading! muchlove!